November 24, 2008

Don’t take it away

Filed under: Mishaps/tests/U name it — Reb Moshe @ 4:06 am

Every day I walk down to the Ari and I pray that Hashem shouldn’t take it all away. My mikvah, Synagoge, and Kollel. I reflect upon my life here in my home and its prime location to Kedusha. Why would Hashem want to take this all away? What would I gain from such an event? There would be no more going to ari mikvah with ease and taking my youngest children to Synagoge with me Friday Night. No quick walk to Kollel in between my busy kiruv schedule. Instead, I would be isolated in the 12 story ghetto housing that is slowly falling apart on the bottom of the city. Far from the surroundings I prayed for and hold so dear. I pray for salvation and for hope but I feel forgotten about. Sometimes I wonder who really worries about me and cares for my sanity. Is this the reward of a broken heart? I was once someone whom people looked to for advice, spiritual encouragement and physical salvation. Now, my head is low and I look for the same but I cannot find it anywhere. My hopes and dreams temporarily feel shattered and all I want is to be a good father now. This to me would be enough. So how much longer will the economic problems butcher us and steal our hopes and dreams? Will there be anyone standing to save those who have fell into its treacherous pit? Have we come to such a position
already that it is every man for himself?
For now, I continue to fight and I continue to pray.

4 Comments

  1. B”H

    Sh’lom,
    Your father Abraham passed successfully through severe tests without fear, and his blood flows through your venas. You are a jew, a chassid, a prince, descendant of princes and you are not allowed to despair. And after all your difficulties, with G-d’s help, you surely will be victorious and become wiser and stronger, so you can help even more people. I’m sure thats the purpose of it all.
    And all of us go with you in through the night, don’t think even for a minute that you’re alone.

    Comment by Teodor — November 24, 2008 @ 12:27 pm

  2. B”H

    Instead of an explanation, just thought to offer a Chassidishe internet hug.

    It’ll be good because it must. Hashem doesn’t forget his children.

    Comment by Yonason Shlomo — November 24, 2008 @ 6:50 pm

  3. Hashem has to help. May abundance just come in every way, gezunt brachas revealed.

    Comment by Hila G. — November 25, 2008 @ 12:41 am

  4. someone emailed me that i should make a bubble bath and i will feel better. so tomarrow when people go to the mikvah, they will see bubbles in it!

    Comment by Reb Moshe — November 25, 2008 @ 2:29 am

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