The little Jew said, “I think I can, I think I can”

Today I started to learn php programming as I don’t have enough money to hire help. Should I bring the script to kollel instead of a sefer?

I haven’t taken my family on an outing in over a month. I was going to buy a car so I could do so and so I could create more Torah Videos by Tzaddikim and of Eretz Yisrael. Instead, it appears the money will go directly to the site layout.

I am short $800 for my current project. It involves an extensive redesign of torahvideo using the highest techology. The project can be finished in 5 days and will help save at least 200 lives. Why do I feel so alone on this?

I am still preparing for the new design. It has taken me far more hours then I had thought to take ilovetorah to the next level. After many delays, slowly we are getting to the final desigh ideas. The video site will be state of the art!!!!!!!

I have heard of so many stories of children who were hit, verbally abused and tormented by their teachers.

Looking back, I see that half of these teachers naturally quit on their own, realizing chinuch wasn’t for them, while the other half, still go on in their ways.

Who picked these teachers for our kids?

How is it that they still hold their jobs?

1. First grade teacher, I thought of him as a prince of Israel as a kid, then a few years later he took me in a car to cut my payis off. Later that night, him and my 3th grade teacher pinned me down to remove them.

2. Second grade teacher, Masive anger problems in the classroom. I ate at his house years later, I didn’t recognize him. Today he has become a sweety. What happened, did he grow up?

3. Third grade, masive anger problems. He knew this of himself and eventually found a new occupation, but how many children were turned off for life from Torah because of him. Then again, all of us kids always knew he was a genuin person, just wasn’t a very good teacher. Maybe some have scares on their bottom to recall this but if we saw him today, would we embrase him? Who told him to teach?

4. Forth grade, I learned the beauty of learning. We felt loved and warmth. The Torah was sweet again.

5. Fifth grade, All this sweetness from 4th. I craved more but he didn’t know how to give it. I was lonely and craved the Torah with knowone to fill my pallet.

6. Sixth grade, Principle, teachers, somebody turn them upside down, the boy wants to learn Gemarah. Why wouldn’t they let him? I was not allowed in the Gemarah class because they didn’t feel I was “ready”. Hello, boy wants to learn gemarah, then he is ready, hello! Sixth grade, one of the hardest years of my life. I borded at one of my teachers home. I cried every night to sleep. To make a long story short, I could not even drive within 15 miles of his home or the school for 10 years thereafter without having an anxiety attack or the want to feed him and a few others to sharks. But again, I ask, why is this man still teaching in our schools? Why are the head Rabbi’s of communities oblivious to what goes on in our school systems.

7. Seventh grade. I don’t know if you can handle the twist of life here.

I am so scared for what will be 5 years from now. The family values our people are diminishing. All because we have become too close to the nations of the world. Rebbe Nachman says, Each of the 70 nations have their own evil tendancies they seem to draw too. With the internet and Television, we seem to be exposing our familes to everything from every corner of the world. What is terrible, mamish is that Hollywood embrases these immoral values and seep them into the minds of our children, what is worse, we let them.
I am guessing about 50% of movies probably have some reference to homosexual/adultry activity. Ten years ago, if they displayed such actions, it was only in order to poke fun of but today, they display this as normal and cool. Five years from now, will it be safe to walk any of the streets of the world? I mamish cry over this worry. My wife reminds me though, the problems start at home. If we show our children that a broken family of being divorced, fighting and everything else, the children will then have a wall that can be breached. On the other hand, if we truly show them the way a family should be and what it is to have morals and love, they will naturally be protected.

Still though, with a bunch of overly wealthy bored people in Beverly Hills putting out moral/immoral influence into the world, there is much to fear.

I wish there was more I could do…:(

What are your expectations of what is, “A perfect Rebbe or Rav?

The average Rabbi is about 40
Has about 6 Children
Generally not a wealthy man
Prays on average 2 Hours a day
Learns Torah, Average 4 Hours a day
Helps with the children, Average 1-2 hours a day
On the phone and Email listening to people’s difficulties , 1-2 Hours a day
Worries for people and Israel, 2-10 Hours a day
Sleeps an average of 5-7 Hours

Now are we too hard on him as we want him to:
1. Call us and check up on us, showing us he cares (taking all of our phone calls)
2. We want to feel like part of his family
3. If he does’t do 1 or 2, we assume he doesn’t care or isn’t the right Rabbi for us.

So is it our Yetzer Hara that is pushing us away from Tzaddikim or maybe what we found really isn’t the right Rabbi yet.

Your thoughts?

I have been struggling to come up with a name for the blog.
Please write in your ideas.

Okey, I have burned all my my chometz, now what do I do?

Well nobody told me blog instructions. Am I supposed to blog every day? Jimmy from Cleavland sujested tonight that I do a video of my checking the house for chometz, so I did one. I keep thinking about how much I need a car to create more videos and write divrey Torah in the mountains. You know, Tzfat is a very interesting place. There is the idra which is 7 minutes away. No bus goes there but in the old days, that is where Rabbi Shimon taught over the highest secrets of the zohar. The Arizal once went there and sat his students in the exact same spots as Rabbi Shimon did. This place is usually diserted during the day so I could sit with a laptop and work on my sefarim for kiruv. Would be great. I also need a new laptop to do this. So, car and laptop, Hashem please help me!

Please share with me and other viewers, what you feel is the most inspirational part of ilovetorah. Also what is has done to help benifit your life and avodas Hashem, service of our Creator.

I am working with top flash specialists to design an all new ilovetorah, torahvideo completely state of the art. I believe it should be completed in about one week. There is so much good material already but the site is overwelming as it is trying to handle all the content. I have always found that as soon as I make a new design, I outgrow it not long after (that is why you always see things stuck in). I am hoping with a new state of the art design, visitors will now be astonished at the true content of these sites, not realizing how much material has really been there all along.

I’m also hoping to get back to my roots of creating more content itself, writing and doing new videos daily once a set theme is in place on the site. I’ve found that doing this all my self from the ground up, really hurts my ability to create new material. I wish Hashem blessed me with the right help and volenteers so I can focus on priorities, teaching Torah. I also need the money to hire out so all the weight doesn’t rest on my shoulders.

Hi,

I feel bad as I hurt my foot so it is difficult for me to help my wife this week to get ready for pesach. How is your preperations coming along my friends? Don’t forget when you clean the house for chametz that you are also cleaning yourself from improper midos.

You know, you can’t just fix yourself spiritually without working on yourself physically. One has to set better scheduals for themselves, organize their life and surroundings. This is why Hashem has us doing actual physical preparations instead of just spiriutally working for pesach, because in order to fix ourselves, we must real get down their and clean up our physical attitude.

Ah, didn’t I say I wouldn’t use the blog to write divar Torahs but keep them on the website in an organized fashion!

Hello everyone,

Most people want to start a blog for their own personal needs. This blog is for you as I truly have no desire for myself to create one. I first started this journey by researching webmaster forums to deside what exactly a blog is. I’ll be honest with you, I don’t think I have ever really read a blog before. Maybe I have been in the dark here but when I searched the webmaster forums it said, blogs are for people who don’t know how to create websites and forums. I thought to myself, this is true, a blog is beneith me as I have been creating websites for 10 years but then I thought again, this is what people like, this is what people want. This is what I must do.

The other thoughts that ran through my brain were.
-They don’t want to know my daily wars
-I’ll be holding back a lot, lol
-How will I have time
-This is no way should take the place of writing normal divar Torahs
-Oh my how many crazy goyim will begin to post on my blog
-It can’t be any worse then when I made a forum 4 years ago
-Why do people care about someone’s personal daily thoughts

My final thought.
-This is a really good idea. People will communicate more about the website and its teachings. The site will be more interactive, it will improve, I will make many new friends and people will feel a part of my life, why they want this, I don’t know but they will feel it and it will be a GOOD THING.